NOW i know how it feels...

My mum used to grumble at me that she's worried that she can't find a job and stuff...now i totally understand how she felt...cos i am in the same boat as she once was...well, i guess it's a phase in life everyone has to go through...it's jus how long the period of waiting time is...

Anyhow, for those out there who prays, keep me in ur prayers...truthfully, i have lost faith...haven't gone church for rather long...a weekly affair turned to a fornight affair turned to none at all...i used to pray hard for watever i want...somehow, most of the time, my prayers were answered...however this time...it's to no avail...no matter how hard i prayed, how many times i attend church, nothing comes out...i noe it's selfish of me to lose faith when my prayers are not answered...ppl tell me to be patient...that God has his time of doing things...sigh...i dun noe really...somehow i dun believe in anything anymore...

It doesn't help that things around you are not going well either...eg, is my temp job...feeling disgruntled...and waking up every morning knowing that it's not gonna be a good day at work...fortunately for the presence of my cousin, if not i think i would have given that up too...sigh...i need to cheer up...badly...do the things i like to do...like clubbing maybe? but i jus recovered from a gastric flu last weekend...so i guess booze is not good for me for now...looks like luck isn't on my side...falling sick every now and then...things not going well for me here and there...wat the hell...

My goals:

Short term is to get a perm job...to pay off my school fees...got the letter from the bank on Monday...not forgetting my laptop too...

Long term...hope to develop my career...first job to second job (i guess 3 years)...my ultimate aim is probably to be a regional hr director...if not, a hr director...not that i dun like to plan far...jus that the short term goals are already unreachable...how to think of long term goals...i used to be someone who think far...but i realised life is not abt planning and planning...you also have to look at what's ahead of you...it's like a baby can't start running unless she starts crawling right...and life is so unpredictable these days...natural disasters here and there...bombings here and there...so while you plan, remember to enjoy whatever you have too...cos one day... you may never have the chance to enjoy it anymore...